Having a rough week?

 

Dear Chronically Positive Mom Family,

Even me, the “Chronically Positive Mom” can get stuck in my sadness sometimes.  It all started last Friday, when one of the women from our support group passed away.  I have never met her face-to-face, but she has been a ray of sunshine in our group. She has helped me feel better personally by giving me support emotionally, and by giving me advice on a physical symptom I was struggling with, as well as helping others there.

In my quest to build up, support, and empower women with chronic illnesses, I never thought about what I would/should do if something happened to one of them!  In my perfect world here in the computer, they would all miraculously be healed and go on to live brilliant lives, running and playing with their children like never before.

I am telling you, dear one, that I am beside myself today.  Both for the loss of Gina (and for her family), and for the realization that this is the reality we face.   It is in the back of our minds, and the minds of those who are close to us.  What if I go too early?

 

 

It is good and healthy to grieve,

when we are done, we need to give ourselves permission to LIVE

 

Hold your child’s hand, look deep into their eyes and tell them you love them.  Commit random acts of kindness to those around you. Take a walk in the rain.  Surround yourself with beauty.  Do what you love to do.  LOVE others.

On Friday night, Gina’s family found out how many peoples lives she had touched.  They had never known that even though she was sick, she was constantly building up others in her online communities.  She reached out and made a difference, even though her symptoms prevented her from doing the things many others take for granted.  I hope that I am like that, bringing love and hope into your life!

SMILE at everyone around you, and enjoy those precious smiles you get in return!

 

Don’t live each day as if it were your last in fear, but live that way and make purposeful choices to enjoy your life. Focus on the positive so you attract other positive people toward you.  You deserve to be happy.  Pursue that happiness.

 

Saturday, I found out our neighbor had also passed away Friday as well, leaving his precious wife & soul-mate behind.  I talked to her yesterday and she was smiling.  She is there, moving forward and loving everyone in her life. And here I am, crying for my loss. Crying because I feel so sad  Crying because I want to make a difference and make a change, but some things are out of my control.

 

This isn’t a normal positive post, but it’s a real and honest one.  

 

I  love my Chronically Positive Mom family, even though we haven’t met in person.  I love you because even though you might be across the world from me, we share a bond.  I am joyful when you are joyful, and I feel the pain of your bad days.  Live today, enjoy today, love today.  Fill your day with joy for me.  Tomorrow I’ll join you.

 

You are loved, and you are not alone,

Jen

 

 

5 thoughts on “Having a rough week?

  1. Thanks, Jen, for posting this. I have felt the same way since she died. I find myself thinking about how any moment could be my last. I think about how sad and negative I am sometimes and feel an urgency to make each day count. I hope my memory is one of love and positivity and helping luke Ginas. Great post!💙

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